Glimpses of God - Day Two

When I was eighteen years old, and at the end of my twelfth year of school, I entered into my first romantic relationship.  Our relationship only lasted two and half months, but I was head over heels in love with this person.  One Sunday afternoon I received a call from him stating we are done, finished, over.  This message came seemingly out of the blue, at least for me.  There was no talking him out of it and no chance to work things out.  Albeit, I really didn’t know what could need working out.  I was very happy and I thought he was too.  Alas, this was not the case.  I felt thrown out and thrown away like yesterday’s news paper.  I had just experienced my first heartbreak from a romance.

The next day was Monday, and I went to school with the same broken heart I’d been feeling since yesterday afternoon.  It was deeply painful this first day, because I had a math class with my ex and I knew I’d see him.  When I entered the classroom I noticed he’d changed seating, and had now taken a desk next to one of his guy friends.  My heart broke all over again.

When I got home from school that day I was feeling very low.  I didn’t want to do anything!  But it was a nice day so I dragged myself outside, groomed my horse, tacked him up, and went for a ride.  After I’d been riding my horse Beau for twenty minutes I couldn’t help but notice how at peace I was feeling.  I was feeling held, loved, gentle… literally, at peace!  I remember thinking to myself that it’s going to be okay and I will be just fine.  I finished up my ride after about two hours, untacked Beau, gave him a good brush and some carrots, then fed him and buddy Stormy their suppers.  The feeling of peace staying with me.

I couldn’t have told you when I was eighteen that what was given to me in that particular moment of need was God’s grace and love at work in my life.  Looking back at that moment reminds me that sometimes I don’t always know what I need.  But God does, and God is always there in our times of need.

John 14.27

Jesus said, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid."